Dear Chloee, I remember this moment with you.
We used to take walks before you got sick over to the church and back.
You always cried and hated it. I feel so guilty for doing it now.
I’m sorry I can’t go back and undo all of those walks.
It started because of your jaundice. The doctors wanted you
to get some sunshine and I wanted to get some exercise.
I wish that I could undo so many, many things.
On this particular day, it wasn’t so bad
because your Dad had come with us on the walk.
So I was able to hold you the whole time.
You always liked that better.
Tys ran around at the church softball field
wrestling with Dad while I just held you
in my arms. I wish I could hold you
again now. I miss you so much.
I am thankful to have
this one picture to remember this moment.
Iam so sad for many,
many things. This is one of
only 2 photos we have of
you outside. Your life was
spent at the hospital
and you never got to
enjoy the sunshine,
swimming, summertime
fun, snow or a cool, spring
day. How I wish that
I could see you outside
now playing and running
like the 5 year old you should be.
